CHANGE...???

just read a bdae message for me from Puffy's blog,

she made a cake for me on my bdae too...

it's a peachy one!

something she wrote on her blog strikes me...

"From a timid gal in secondary school times,

we have witness her mature into the PX today."

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recently i met up with a friend over some drinks..

we chatted about our school days...

when i told him how i was like in secondary school,

he was surprised to hear that

i was a timid one!

and i was quite dependent on friends too!!

so unlike of me...now~

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What caused the change?

or What made me grow up??

It was a remark from my best friend!

someone whom i know from my first day of school

my true friend since Primary One!!

and she is still one of my best true friends...

though i was hurt at that moment upon her words,

it made me a stronger person now...

able to be independent when i have to...

(of cos i still like to be pampered too!)

everyone changes with time...

it's that good or bad??

it's a tough question to answer...

yet cant help wondering

if the before "me" was better or the after "me" ??

(btw which PX do you know??)

haha~

it's my 100th post too....WHAT A DAY!!!

now it's 1.34am on 30 Aug 2009...

today's my birthday....27 already~

just got back from a concert!!

all i can say is "MAYDAY ROCKS!!"

i'm simply happy and touched today....

1st: my sis paid for this concert as my bdae present...

for a record, we seldom give bdae pressie to each other in my family

so it's really a surprise!!

plus we always attend Mayday concerts together...

2nd: it's the longest Mayday concert ever... almost 4 hrs

been attending their concert whenever they come to SG,

i was so sad i missed one when i was in US... :(

3rd: they sang all the way thru 12 midnight into my b'dae...

haha...so Mayday "sort of" celebrated for me too... :P

i made a bdae wish during the concert...*SECRET*

4th: glad that i'm in SG for my bdae this year...

i remembered how i felt last year in US,

having to make myself to feel happy on my bdae

by going NYC on purpose...

where i was being stalked by some strange guy

which could end up being in a big big trouble!

luckily i'm safe and well till now....

i should stop here or my list would get really long!!

my emotions are just overflowing tonight....

my eyes turned watery during the concert too...

upon hearing two particular songs...

i don't know why i was so into the songs...

guess i'm touched by those lyrics~

now i gonna bear the "post-concert consequences"...

from all the craziness of jumping and screaming~

*aching arms and slightly sore throat*

yet i'm feeling great!!! *woohoo*

i'm one of those lucky blessed ones...

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btw i have decided to sponsor a child too!

helping kids in 3rd world countries...

i have been wanting to do this few years ago,

when i saw those appeals for sponsors...

finally i'm going to be one!

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hmmm~~~

well...regardless where you are, time files!

i'm back already for 3 weeks...and one more week left~

last week for me to hang around freely...

from September, i'm not a slacker or "maid" anymore...

back to the life of a typical working adult....

not that i don't like it,

pretty much looking forward to it

but what's in store for me?

heard alot of postive and negative stuffs...

i'm prepared for the worst and hoping for the best!!!

will have to see it goes~

chatted with one of my seniors in Albany today,

heard that they miss having me around...

i miss being there too.... :(

not that i don't wanna be back...

i like being around my family...

hanging out with my friends...

at the same time,

being in Singapore feels strange~

familiar yet out-of-place!?!

old yet different!?!

while it's a matter of "re-adjusting" back

which i know i'm of high adaptability....

i can't help feeling LOST!!

not just in terms of directions to places around

it's my life....how to go from here now??

still looking for my standing point yet again...

what i'm used to before i left...

everything or most of them had changed!!

i'm entering yet another phase of life....

kinda pessimistic with this for a start....

priority changes...catching up with life....

brighter side of life is just a smile away~

*SMILE*

finally...it's here!

now here i am in the Albany International Airport...

waiting for my delayed flight to JFK...

and onwards to Frankfurt...

no red eyes nor tears...

i "fought hard" to keep them in...

and didnt really said goodbyes to many..

which would end up in a mess!!

being it cool and calm...

now looking forward to Europe....

and back to SG in 2 weeks!!

wonder what's in store for me next???

11 Jul 2009 - Farewell BBQ for PX

thinking back when i first saw the name of my supervisor-to-be,

i freaked out and went...

*OMG! It's going to be some indian guy...seriously???*

(p/s: all due to that super bad experience at last workplace)

i wasn't happy about that but told myself it cant be that bad in US,

indeed it turns out that i had the best supervisor one could wish for!

i'm glad that Feryan was my supervisor!

always composed, clear-minded and smart,

friendly, approachable and helpful,

plus he knows alot from chemistry to travel to food and fun!

patiently teaching and guiding me in medicinal chemistry...

giving me the freedom to explore and learn about research work

made me build up my confidence step by step in the lab...

slowly being more independent...

though i was left under the "care" of the other seniors,

he's always there to help and support...

i'm grateful that Feryan organised this farewell party for me!

it's a lot of work on top of his workload at work and home...

babysitting 3 boys after work can be so tiring~

i had such a great time working in Albany...

like what Joel said...

"She's having too much fun here, time to get real!!"

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link to pics:

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=93292&id=742489079&l=f9cad75849

Random~~~

it's almost here...

four more days~

i will be heading on my way home...

though my journey home takes slightly long...

eventually i will be back~

not really ready or prepared to leave...

i know i won't be ready even when i'm on the plane~

all good things will come to an end!

it's been really really really great for me~

it's an experience that i never imagined...

moving forward is part of the learning process...

i made my footprints in their paths...

they each made a mark in my heart...

just like anyone i loved and care for...

they always have a special spot somewhere locked in...

i hope we will cross path again...

sometime somewhere in the future...

11 June 2009 - STRAT Seminar

almost 18 months of training....

more than 2 weeks of preparation....

i gave a presentation today!!

in the AMRI Albany auditorium....

so nervous before going up to the podium...

the stress being the 1st speaker for the day~

i want my supervisor to feel proud...

my team members too...

i wanna showcase my work and feel proud!

*i have done it!*
delivered what i wanted to....or have to...

composed...with loud and clear voice...

scientific and professionally....

i'm relieved and happy!

i didn't embarrassed anyone~

i think i did a good job!

*a pat on the back*

with the support from my team...

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today i also attended my last teleconference

with my project's customer in Japan!

i still remembered how nervous i was

when i started presenting my chemistry to them...

i practiced and practiced the whole week!

i became better later on....

got more confidence in presenting chemistry

where i start preparing my presentation on the day itself...

*steady ar!!* haha...

i guess they could recognize my voice too...

the only girlie girl voice among those deep manly voice~

though we have to stay till 9-10 pm...

due to time difference the meeting starts at 6 or 7pm...

it's fun planning what's for dinner with the team!

sometimes we get free dinner paid by AMRI...

when it's free, i would go around taking orders for everyone...

make the order for delivery or pick-up,

i like to follow my seniors out to pick up the food...

ride in the car and get out of the office for a while!

guess i'm like the little brat sister in the lab!!

wanna tack along like a kid...

need to know everything going on in the lab...

being bossy in cleaning up the lab....

getting teased by them everytime....

there's gonna be so much i will miss being in the team~

working in the most laid-back yet productive and awesome lab...

already miss working in the lab!!

*sob sob*